Worthless. That's apparently my life story. I feel that way at work, at home & even in the congregation where I worship. On some tiny little rational side, I can begrudgingly acknowledge this might not be reality but it is definitely how I feel right now. At work, I'm not worth enough for my past bosses to acknowledge the birth of my son. Yes, I realize he's almost 3 & I should be past that but it has recently been brought back to mind. I'm not worth enough for people to remember to include me in some critical discussions. At the congregation, I don't feel like anyone has considered me truly worth getting to know. (There are a couple of noted exceptions for which I'm thankful.) And at home, I'm certainly not worth the effort of knowing & loving. I mean if failure to update the bank balance equals such a grievous wrong that I am sleeping alone tonight, how much value can one have placed on me? Again with a tiny shred of logic, I can recognize the signs of depression & the devastating exhaustion due to constant headaches as potentially clouding my judgment but that's how I'm feeling nonetheless. I pray tonight that I can put my self centered thoughts aside & get past these feelings soon. I realize nothing good can come from this thought pattern.