Give me strength

Hyde suggested Shortstuff take a late nap & I grab a quick shower. This is code for he wants to spend some alone time with me. I should be happy since it is the first hint at initiating anything physical in years. However it is so hard to be in the moment when just a few days ago he told me he couldn't be attracted to me until I exercised regularly. I feel like I'm just a warm body & nothing special.